Thursday, April 17, 2008

Struggling

I've mentally settled down a bit since my last foul-mouthed post, but I have really been struggling this week. I had probably the worst day I've ever had with Sister yesterday, where I yelled at her so loud she burst into tears. Felt great about that one, let me tell ya.

Sweet P has entered a phase where she doesn't want to be put down at all and suddenly sleeps dramatically less than she used to. I know, I know, this shouldn't be a surprise to me, a supposedly experienced mama. But it does mean that on top of Sister's horrible homework hysteria nearly everyday, and Bean trying to alternately pick fights with hysterical Sister or surreptitiously squeeze the baby's hands or skull, I have a screaming baby demanding attention, too.

It's enough to make me utterly short out. You know on old Looney Tunes cartoons how you'd see smoke coming out of Yosemite Sam's ears when he was pissed off? It's the smoke of overloaded brain circuitry, I understand that now. And that's been me lately.

This morning--and the rest of today--has gone better. Sister had a delayed opening school day, so she spent the extra time getting me to set her up with an embroidery project that she's making as a birthday present to Bean. A nice, peaceful morning then, and this is hopefully her new hobby. On her way out the door to school, she declared it to be so.

8 comments:

cubmommy said...

That has been me lately! I got a 6 year old and 3 year old that won't listen to me. The baby demands my attention. I get so angry inside that when I blow I can not believe it is me. Where did that scream come from?

I wasn't always like this. I used to be a very patient person.

I am finding it hard to balance. I am trying to take things in stride. I know it has been a long winter for us and now the weather is starting to get nicer. The park the last few days have been my sanity.

Glad to know I am not alone in feeling this way.

Suzanne said...

I can't imagine being pulled in three different directions at once. More than steam would be coming out my ears, I think.

I hope that things get better for you all soon.

Mama D said...

You mentioned perhaps finding a tutor in a previous post. Is that still an option? Just wondering because I am feeling terrible about you having to worry/deal with that on top of everything else. Perhaps there is even a really bright junior high aged kid that lives in your neighborhood that could help out and take a load off for you. And Sister would probably love that too.

I feel for you. I feel that short circuitry way and I currently only have one child demanding my attention. I do fear for my future...

Hang in there.

Amber said...

I've had more weeks like that then I care to admit. :)

Joan said...

I don't know what is it with this homework - nearing EOG's? Every night my daughter has done over 3 hours of homework. She's having headaches. My husband emailed the teacher today. I can't wait to see her reply.
Hang in there. Maybe summer will be better due to a more laid back schedule.

Beth said...

it's the EOG's...I'm tellin ya. they are a product of the devil!!! Rae just eaches to the test....it's all about The Test and The Test Scores. so much pressure is put on these kids at such a young age....they just need to be KIDS!

that said, sister will do a lovely job at her embroidery! A nice hobby to get into...for as long as it lasts! ;)

And go ahead and blow off some steam....you need to. The kids will get over it and so will Hubby. Someone's gotta take care of YOU!

Devilish Southern Belle said...

*hugs*

I am struggling, too. I hope things get better for you! It sucks to be constantly worn down.

Bina said...

Maybe it's something with the weather and they'll get over soon! I hope so anyway, for your sanity!

Being a mom can be just so freaking hard and frustrating sometimes. Hang in there!