Hungry

I've got a batch of chocolate candy cane ice cream whirring away in my electric ice cream machine just now. And, having vowed to get back in shape this year, it was all I could do not to guzzle a big mugful of un-frozen ice cream a little while ago.

I am starving today.

I'm not actually walking around with an empty belly here, mind you, since as a nursing mama I realize the importance of continuing to eat well to make sure our littlest girl gets what she needs in liquid form. I assure you, I'm still eating plenty. I just want some calories, dammit! A single day of eating flaxseed cereal with skim milk and bananas for breakfast, vegetable-barley soup and a cheese quesadilla for lunch, and no, repeat NO, brownies out of the freezer or any of the chocolate we have lying around or even a freaking gummy worm has me thinking of nothing but what high-calorie high-fat snack I could possibly justify right now.

If I can hold off til after dinner, maybe I'll have just a little cup of homemade ice cream though. It's not good for the mama to be utterly deprived, right?

Getting rid of this 20 pounds will be hard.