Saturday, January 05, 2008

This new life

I've said to people who've asked how I'm doing lately that this 3-kid gig is easier than I thought it would be. I think I was psyching myself up for a brutal new reality that would have me chewing my fingernails, grabbing for the gin, and yelling my head off all day or something. In truth, our new sweetie is an easy, mellow baby whose needs are very easy to interpret and satisfy. Give her a clean diaper, a belly full of milk, and some time spent ON you everyday listening to your heart beat and she's happy indeed.

Which is not to say that this is easy exactly. I had a good friend over yesterday and felt like my new baby-full life must look pretty frantic from the outside. Maybe that's just because Bean was going nuts that day, chucking toys at Sister's head, yelling at me when I reprimanded her, spitting food out onto her lunch plate, etc. She generally chooses to do this sort of thing when I'm distracted by something else, of course--nursing, talking on the phone, talking to someone besides her, merely thinking about a sewing project. So finding time to blog is difficult now. Bean has been asking several times a day lately, "What are we gonna do NOW?" when there's a perceived lull, which means no seizing a few quiet moments to electronically scribble down a few thoughts for me. I'm only able to do it now because she happens to be napping at the same time as Husband and her baby sister.

Anyways.

This is not a complaint. I always have the thought lurking in my mental background that this is the last time I'll do this--the last time I'll have a sweet little baby to take care of and the last time that Bean will be this crazy, sassy, tornado of a toddler. It makes me feel a little sad, a little old, and a little less likely to indulge in a temper tantrum my own self.

Most days.

4 comments:

Devilish Southern Belle said...

You have a really good handle on things. When I had my youngest son, I never imagined he would be my last. I think you're doing exceptionally well! And there will always be plenty of time to blog later :)

Beth said...

I think you're doing a great job. and ya, enjoy the temper tantrums and all the chaos...i miss it a little bit! Oh, I still have chaos, but it's different now. I miss the boys when they were little, and were just little tornadoes running around the house, pretending to be Power Rangers.

enjoy it

cubmommy said...

I know what you mean about time and having three kids. I don't know how I get through most days. They fly by.

I just try to keep thinking one day I will be able to sleep so try to take in all that they are doing. It is hard though.

Joan said...

It probably helps (at least sometimes) that Sister is older. I see moms with 3 kids not even school age yet and think "How can they do that?".