Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Done now

My, it has been awhile since my last post, hasn't it? And since my last comment to any of you. I haven't been utterly swallowed up in toddler hell, I assure you, though at times I've felt awfully close. Just busy with life as mama of three. After around seven weeks, I believe I'm getting the hang of it. Planning dinner before lunchtime helps. And I've found that I better start cooking around 4:00 to be sure that after a gajillion interruptions it might actually be ready by our 6:30 dinnertime. I do laundry less often, but I do enormous quantities of it when it happens. And I've figured out how to wipe Bean's poopy bottom after she visits the potty WHILE I'm nursing her baby sister, thank you very much.

It's definitely busy around here, and I once again celebrate wine o'clock every night to reward myself and, let's be honest, to keep from utterly blowing apart at the end of my very long days.

So given all that, are you surprised that I left the midwives' office last week after my very last pregnancy-related appointment ever in tears? I was surprised. My 6-week check-up this time around marks the end of my baby-making career and it makes me very sad. Do I really want a fourth child? I really don't. I want my body back and I want to believe that Husband and I could have the time and money to travel again one of these days. I also look forward to being the mother of adolescent, then teen-age, then grown-up girls.

But it's still hard to be done with babies.

4 comments:

Joan said...

I'm glad you're okay. I never felt sad when we took permanent measures not to have more children. Then I felt guilty because I didn't feel bad. Again, hope this is a good week for everyone.

Beth said...

awwwwwww...it IS sad, to know that you'll. NEVER. have. another. baby!!!! I STILL cry and my baby is 13! ;)

But believe me, and I KNOW this, it will be ok. Really. Once the girls get older and you actually sleep all night long, and can have time with your husband...all by yourselves!!!...woohoo!!!

I wish we lived closer too, so I could hold baby sister while you wipe Bean's poopy butt. How's the potty training going?

JMom said...

hi! I hadn't been by in a while, I thought I would drop by to see how you're doing. I still long for babies too... those were the best times and also the worst times :) My girls are in teen land now but it is still fun. Different though. I look at them sometimes and wonder where my babies went.

Piece of Work said...

Oh! To be done with babies! It is hard to think about. Although having been out of diapers for over a year and having two surprisingly independent kids now I can see how nice it could be.

Doesn't mean I'm done having babies though, god willing.