Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Taking a break

We're back from the mountains of Tennessee. Actually I should confess that we've been back for some days now. It was a relaxing trip and for the record I need to say here that I finally got the whole cabin on the river thing for Husband. We attended his annual family reunion together for the first time, and I met lots of relatives. They were all so nice. And smart. And sweet and welcoming. It was very pleasant indeed and I think that from now on I won't dread the cabin trip quite so much. The long drive with kids, yes. The place itself, no. It's kind of a relief for me to not feel so pissy about it.

But now we're home again, living among what few boxes we have packed, trying to get a ridiculous number of things done before we close on the new house Friday and then leave town again for another week on Saturday. Sigh. I'm sure y'all are sick of hearing about this, and frankly I'm sick of my own damn self at the moment. I've decided I'm going to take a brief break from blogging here because I'm just too tired of what I have to say. Basically, my life can be summed up in a few sentences right now. Here it is:

I'm really tired most of the time. I'm really busy with packing and scheduling repairs on both these houses, plus taking care of the kids all damn day. My kids and my husband drive me nuts a lot because I'm so tired and busy all the time. I am evil and short-tempered with them a lot and can't help myself. I generally feel resentful and put-upon most days.

Who needs it? I'll bet most of the mamas out there feel exactly the same way, but somehow the rest of you say it in a more witty fashion or are more insightful and creative about it, or at the very least you don't let it drag on for quite so long. Me, I'm just tired of my own shit. I'm going to shut up for the next couple of weeks and hope that just getting through to the other side of this move will cure me.

I'll see y'all after we move, early August or thereabouts.


cubmommy said...

We will miss you! I totally understand. That is way I haven't posted a whole lately. I feel like I am negative too much but right now that is how I feel. Everybody here is driving me crazy. Lately I have been leaving the house as soon as Hubby gets home. I go to the library or for a walk. I have to have a break.

I hope your move goes smoothly and I can't wait to hear all about it in August!

Nikkie said...

I'm glad that the trip too the cabin was nice and relaxing! I hope that the move goes well, and that your hubby and kids don't get on your nerves too much!

See you when you get back!!

Stacie said...

welp, good luck with the move, it is a stressful time, and it is a shitty job, being a mom. So for me, I really like your honest reporting on how it makes you feel, cuz I feel that way too a lot of the time... it makes me feel like I'm not alone! :-) Will be awaiting your next post!

"Grandi" said...

Hang in there Sugar!! Moving is stressful enough without the summer heat and not being home to do it at your own pace! Throw in little kids, and no wonder you are stressed!

I'll look forward to reading about your wonderful new home when you are back and ready to share!!

Nancy said...

Good luck with everything. I hope you get some downtime to relax -- we will see you when you return!

Dawn said...

Deep Breathing.

I feel you 100%. Come back when you're ready.

VenturaMom said...

"I am evil and short-tempered with them a lot and can't help myself. I generally feel resentful and put-upon most days." Oh my gawd, you just summed up my life!!!!

Keep up the evil, sistah! We don't want you going all soft and squishy while you are gone.

Mama D said...

Glad you enjoyed the cabin and the reunion.

Your need to take a break is totally understandable, not that you need to explain anything to us, but thanks!

I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling crappy. I really hope that packing and moving and everything goes so great and FAST.

I can't wait for you guys to be in your new home and I can't wait to hear (and see) all about it!

I'll be thinking of you!